Marsha Ambrosius - Hope She Cheats On You

Marsha Ambrosius is BEAUTIFUL .. inside and out

1/2 of the old group of floetry 

she's just a BEAUTIFUL soul

and this song?

OH LAWD .. this song speaks out how i use to feel about a old ting of mine

i was sure as hell bitter

but i got over it .. WHATEVS!

She cute and all, but that won't last forever. 
What I had for you was so much better. 
Yeah the grass ain't greener on the other side of town. 
Now look at how it all turned out now. 
I'm a little bitter, just a little bitter. 
But I'm doing better, 'cause we ain't together. 
You sorry excuse for somebody I was into. 
Remember what it was when I was wit' you? 

Just another day

Am I the only one who's so bi-polar with my days?

It might be weather related and how I went to sleep that night

But there's some days where I wake up and I just loooooove outside .. And my life .. And the sun .. And my friends .. I'm so giddy .. And talkative .. Non caring .. I feel beautiful .. And not a thing can ruin my day .. I laugh in the face of evil .. Not even the nastiest attitude can make me mad .. That's when I'll listen to everyones problems .. And give the best advice .. That's when I hit up the guy I'm talking to .. Telling him how much I miss him .. Grab my mom a few of her favorites things .. On my best daughter behavior

And then

There's the gloomy days ..where I just hate the fact that I gotta get up and leave my bed .. Everything annoys me .. I hate the weather .. I hate my job .. The fact that I gotta spend money .. My friends get slightly ignored .. I hate talking to customers .. Look at me too long and I'll hate you too .. My mom gets the worst of my out lashes .. I brush off my possible suitors .. Like I just wish I could go home and confine myself to my bed ..

Or is this just me?

De la natural

So .. I've decided to go natural *dramatic music*

Yes .. I've said it .. NATURAL *more dramatic music*

I got a perm when I was in the 10th grade .. So about 16/17 .. I grew tired of my moms typical dinosaur braids and our 3 day hair wash process .. And she gave me 2 choices .. Perm or dreads (even though I doubt she would've let me dread my hair) and I happily excitedly pick a perm .. And LET ME TEEEEEEEEEEEELL YOU *chews gum chicken-headishly* I thought I was the shit .. Cutie with a booty and long luscious hair

YEAAA ALRIIIIIIGHT .. I think my gassed up head lasted about a year before I started treating my hair horrible .. No deep conditioners, trims, wraps .. Thinking I was a white girl and taking naps without tying my hair .. Eating junk food .. NO VITAMINS!

Slowly but surely my hair starting breaking off something serious .. And I started imagining myself as one of those girls with long hair with only 2 strands of hair .. OH NO *grabs scissors* so after much thought and consideration and motivation from my cousin and just the beauty of natural hair and things you can do to it .. Products you can put in it .. I was convinced and sold ..

If only I knew THEN what I know NOW .. I would be rocking my big diana ross .. Solonge .. Erykah badu fro

Unfortunately society and my mother doesn't view natural hair as beautiful .. But guess what .. WHO THE FUCK CARES!

Typical

You know what I hate .. That when I tell a lot of people I want to get married first then work on children they laugh as if its impossible and like I'm suppose to accept that I'll be like the typical women who has a baby father vs husband

As if I'm not good enough or qualified to be considered a wife .. Or that I'll be so deep and lost into love one day with my boyfriend that I'll slip up and get pregnant ..

Um no thanks .. I've was involved with someone for 2 yrs in which I passed the 'in love' 'infatuated' stage and didn't slip up

I have goals .. I have dreams .. Do I want children? That's still under consideration .. I want to plan my kids rather then it be off one night of temptation

And it also makes me feel bad for the males .. It comes off as if males are incapable of marriage and love and monogamous relationships .. Oh well .. I have faith that there's a shitload of good guys out there .. I'm chilling .. They'll come to me in due time

love is a beautiful thing

idk.

im just thinking