I love you like a brother . . .

Every guys worst nightmare .. When the hottest or coolest girl you've ever talked to labels you her 'brother' .. Crushing your hopes and dreams of ever being and/or screwing her

Ever wondered why and how you got from point a (Almost getting it) to point b (brother)?

Well let me explain it as best as I could .. Or more so how I see it (Disclaimer: this is based off of how I do it and/or have seen, every female is different)

Well to start it off there's always 2 different type of guys a female meets .. The 1 who talks to her purely off the fact that he wants to get with her .. And the 1 who starts off as a friend ..

The ones who start off purely off the fact of getting with her are safe ... That is *dramatic music*.. Until they start to get too comfortable rather then giving the chase .. .. See that's where you mess up .. We like to be chased .. And the moment you slow down and/or stop ..  thats when you start to go from potential to "Brother"

and then there's the started of as friends guy .. every female has guy friends .. no matter what any guy thinks or doesn't want to believe .. WE ALL HAVE MALE FRIENDS .. half who we have no intentions of EVER having any relations with .. but yes .. the trick with the 'started of as friends' guy is stupid and unnecessary but us females still use it (well at least i do) .. if we just met you .. and already your trying to talk to us .. we'll look at you as desperate .. BUT if we've been friends for a while and then you want to talk to us .. if we're close it will be weird .. bc .. you know us ON ANOTHER LEVEL .. just like a brother/sister/best friend would .. and this is where the contradiction comes in .. SOMETIMES the relationship there might work .. and SOMETIMES it wont .. and some females are risky and willing to take the chance while others are perfectly fine with where you guys are ATM. so i guess moral of this section is .. to just know when the right time is .. not to quick but not too long ..

as ridiculous as this post might that sound to some people .. its true .. 

I Remember . . .

as i sit here listening to maxwell

i flashed back to the time 

me and my best friend went to a his concert

as he sang his little heart out

me, my best friend and 723,094 other women

tried our hardest not to cream our panties

(exaggeration not added)

he is sure as hell a good looking older guy with a sweet voice

BUT not as sexy as my George Clooney

*kisses life size poster on wall*

No Matter What .. .. Always Carpe Diem

Hmm?

i wonder if i'll ever find a boyfriend

LOL

random, i know.

i know i want one 

but then again

i like being alone && my freedom

doing shit my way

without someone questioning it

and besides, people annoy me QUICK

i don't/refuse to argue

i'm too independent and friendly

i have a problem connecting emotionally with people (well blame this on my lack of hugs from my mom growing up *shrugs shoulders*)

i'm smart mouth and rude (at times)

i can't stand over jealous guys

and besides i can be spiteful

and lets not forget i'm scared shitless of getting close to someone

lol .. see? .. i have alot of flaws

i'm surprised some of the guys i've talked to stuck around as long as they did

cause had i been a guy i would've "ON TO THE NEXT ONE" me a long time ago

MOTIVATED

Kelly Rowland .. GURRRRRR .. Ku-the fuck-do's to you

Motivation is this summer's baby making music.

With over 14 mill views

this is without debate her greatest song EVER

even though i felt she played it safe by keeping the sweater on during the dance scene

she was sexy

the lyrics are sexy

lil wayne is sexy

THOSE BACK UP DANCERS???

TUH

SEXY

Very Sexy Summer

So i've been working out .. and will be continuing to work out until beach weather arrives &&

next week i shall be ordering THIS bathing suit .. well .. at least the bottom half .

and yes .. i'm excited/nervous

Before I Die

And before i have kids also

i want a pair of Christian Louboutin

hopefully after i graduate school i can land a good job

and spoil myself with a pair

TEHEHE :)

So . . . . . Yea

so a few post back i wrote about my co-worker 

and how i didn't like her

yadda yadda

yea, well now i want to apologize for that

LMAO

that post was verrrrrry mean

but whatevs .. i was mad *hmph*

anyways

i don't know why we never even talked

but im so over it

Cuddly Love

now tell me this isn't the cutest shit you've ever seen .. bc it is

Ironic

ironic how in that video .. while the guy is getting beat up
they auto focus the camera on the american flag

the land of the free my ass

Marsha Ambrosius - Far Away

Ooh tear stains on my pillow 
Tryna forget ya 
Don't know what I'm gonna do 
More days and counting 
I've been laying and staring 
Myself in the mirror 
All alone in my room 
I can't feel this way again 
Gotta think with my head 
Cause my heart is what got me here 
So hurt from what you've done 
More than enough reasons for me to move on 
Cause I gave you my word 
You put your trust in me 
Supposed to be the one to give you what you need 
I was by your side 
When we were meant to be 
Guess it doesn't matter now that you're so far away






DEEP

Before I Forget

so the other day i accompanied my friend to a jazz concert for her term paper

and we went to the Tribecca Performing Arts Center

sounds fancy right?

retards should've just told us to go to BMCC bc -_- 

thats were it was

but anyways .. we went to the see "the lost jazz shrines" part 1 which were showing pieces of 

MULTIMONK

that were being played by Scott Robinson and his compadres

well my friend said that there were different genres of jazz

so im going to call this the genre of jazz that i could not fucking understand

dont get me wrong it was interesting and new

but 85% of the time i sat there like o_o .. lmao .. SERIOUSLY!

half the time they played together .. && the other half it seemed as if they were all playing different songs at the same time .. 

it brought so much emotions though ... i won't lie .. at parts i felt like i wanted to be in some arms rocking back and forth slowly .. part where i just wanted to just sit there with my eyes closed and sway along and then parts where i wanted get on stage and teach them how the hell to play

over all .. it was fun .. i liked it .. 

MORAL OF THE STORY: stop being boring .. and do some shit out of the ordinary 

Wait. . . .

so as i unconsciously stalk other people blogs

i wonder if i'm blogging right?

bc i see fashion blogs

photography blogs

blogs from stay at home moms

shoe addicts

hipsters

and then

there's my blog *blows raspberries* 

idk .. i use this blog sorta like a writing pad for the shit that flows through my head

makes sense?

Life Lessons

"Life isn't about avoiding the storms.
It's about learning how to dance in the rain."

it took me a Long .. LONG .. LONG time 

before i learned to accept shit that would happen

in my life.

i learned at a young age though

to not blame others for my problems

i forget who

but one day .. i tried to blame someone

for my problems .. and the person i was

talking to told me

'Cybill .. you can't always go around blaming others for your problems,

sometimes you have to take blame for you own shit'

so now ..  no matter what happens

i always know that i can make it through it

and that sometimes .. some of the shit that happens

could'a  would'a should'a 

been avoided if i went about it differently

i need my camera

REALLY BAD 

lately its as if

I've entered this world of art

everything i see

is beautiful art

something worth capturing

and i cant capture it

*SIGH*

im still crazy

just saw this personality test and said HEY .. WHY THE HELL NOT?

http://kisa.ca/personality/

And I always find, yeah, I always find, yeah, I always find something wrong

You been putting up with my shit just way too long

I'm so gifted at finding what I don't like the most

i guess you can say that explains my love life .. haha

oh boy .. i never imagined .. that on a nice friday night .. i would be home sitting across from my fan .. blogging and searching the internet .. but .. whomp whomp .. here i am .. home .. playing the best daughter role that i don't know how to play while my mum sleeps off her pain from foot surgery .. *SIGH*

Dear Robert Jean Louis

remember back in haiti? sitting on tati's porch watching tv? we use to all watch mr beans .. remember all the laughs we shared? mr beans sure was a fool.

remember when it use to rain hard? and we use to all go on the roof .. dance around and shower .. oh the colds we shared

remember the time i broke your radio? oh man i remember being so scared and all the others were ready to snitch on me.

remember that time that one time i was sick and felt like i was dying? i fell asleep, woke up and exaggerated about how long i feel asleep and you said 'cybill you only fell asleep for 20 mins' 

remember those nights you use to come home drunk and we would always bother you and you would make us laugh with your drunken sillyness

do you remember when you moved? i was mad .. use to always look at the phone when you called .. like 'why is he calling?' but yet i still loved your calls

remember those few times you use to talk to cassie when she was just a baby? she would always go around saying 'Bob Bob Bob Bob'

remember that day .. that sad day .. when you were in the hospital .. and

and i told my mom to put the phone by your ear ... .. i said .. i said 'monok bob .. listen to me .. i love you and thats all that matters .. and your going to promise me that you'll get better .. please promise me ..' and you made a little noise .. and i said 'ok im going now .. but i love you, always remember that'

do you remember that?

i miss you more then words can express .. but i would rather have you up there pain free then down here suffering

well .. i just wrote this to see if you remembered .. and that i remembered today was your birthday .. and to always remember that i love you

Sincerely,

Cybill Louis 

Viva La Vida

Their jackets are DOPEx4890789048729487

so i've never took time out to really listen to Pusha T && Big Sean but i stumbled upon these two songs that i just i HAVE to keep on repeat bc to me there so DOPE

AWOOOOOOOOOOOOOH

let me entertain you with some vybz kartel

im convinced that if they give kartel a visa

he could SELL OUT madison square gardens first half an hour tickets go on sale

he sure ugly as hell .. but at least he'll have a pretty smile .. LMAO

Peace, Love && NATURAL

I've decided to live a AU NA-TU-RAL lifestyle now

going from all natural to low carb foods

to natural shampoos && hair treatments

to even thrift shopping

and i must say i'm loving it :)

I've lost a few pounds

my hairs going strong, thicker, more natural

and my wardrobe dopeness has increase

BUT the downside to this is

if you don't balance and shop around

you'll be broke before you know it

i'll go back to product reviewing and yadda yadda once my cam is back

cause i've come to a conclusion that i'm a product junkie =/

Cole World

so about 2 weeks ago a friend and i scored some tickets to the Jcole && Fab college concert

and it was DOPE

luckily even though we got there when they were opening the doors rather then like 2 hours before

we still managed to squeeze our way somewhat to the front

me and Jcole sexed each other visually .. im convince *side eye*

but on a serious note

after that concert i respected Jcole on a whole other level then when he was just 'some' rapper 

one thing that he is, is HUMBLE

he appreciates the struggle he had

where he came from

what he learned

yadda yadda

and he wanted his crowd to know

he gave us a story

of a young cat who chased his dream .. all the way to new york

went to school .. from a broke college student to a broke adult

kept chasing his dream .. and now is signed with hov

idk .. maybe its just me .. but i appreciated that .. he'll probably do that for the next couple of hundred shows

and then when he becomes more mainstream and has more fame and money

he's most likely become one these ungrateful forgetting where they came from rappers

*SHRUGS*

oh .. fab was good too .. o_o

Dirty Diana

LMFAO *Falls Off Bed From Laughter*

WOW .. she ODed .. i mean .. if her shorts were any shorter, she would've gotten pregnant

ROTFL

the look on big sean's face is PRICELESS

yes booboo she was trying to go home with you! lol

so can we all agree that she raps better then 1876543456 of these so called "Rappers" out here

she's fast like busta and nasty like wayne

SOMEONE CUT THIS LADY A CHECK

SIGN HER OR SOMETHING!

Sincere Apologies

sorry about the lack of updates

i guess i had bloggers block for the longest

since i sold my camera Ive had NO motivation

wish isn't good

let me go pretty up the blog then write =/